Every day I am overcome by a green eyed jealousy monster. It’s not that I am envious of ARCs or anything. I am jealous of everyone’s brain power and creative well of ideas. Every day I feel like I come across awesome discussion posts or cool features and I think to myself, WHY DIDN’T I COME UP WITH THAT?!
And then I end up feeling inadequate. I see pieces where people say they don’t read reviews or they don’t like them and I’m all, well shoot, that’s about the extent of my brain power these days. I mean, if you scan Good Books And Good Wine, it’s pretty much ALL reviews with maybe a Stacking The Shelves or Top Ten Tuesday thrown in or a contest. Is it weird that I feel like we are lacking because we really do not do weekly or even monthly discussion posts?
Friends, there are days when I think to myself, oh yeah I’m totally going to write a post with opinions and deep thoughts and get all the comments and answer all the comments. Then, I go to sit at the computer after work and just feel overwhelmed and exhausted and my brain stops working. So, I pick reading instead of writing an opinion post.
I guess, what I am trying to say is that I am in this content rut and I wish I could write posts for you all that were more than reviews or memes, but I have this bone-deep exhaustion and I can’t be bothered, it seems.
How do you guys deal with finding a balance? How do you channel your creativity and not give into the weariness and exhaustion? I am not about to self diagnose here, but I miss being peppy and creative and outgoing and more involved in the blogging community. I miss reading blogs. I miss commenting. I miss responding to all the comments. But, I just, at the end of the day, at 5:30 if I skip the gym or 6:30 if I go to the gym, I have no motivation to even look at my computer or blogs.
Here’s what I’m attempting to try and get out of this tired, overwhelmed mind-space: I’m exercising on a daily basis. This is helping my energy level. I’m going to try to film more vlogs, because they are fun and different and a new way for me to talk about books. I’m going to force myself to write one discussion talk post per month, because you know the power through it method or the just do it method and all. I am going to try and eat a bit better and be kinder to myself.
I’m just in a weird headspace right now and need to share as this is MY outlet and for some reason, knowing you are out there reading this helps.